It Wasn't Meant To Be Like This (2)

On the plane to and from my holiday I cried.

I cried tears for the life I am living. I knew that the time for action is now. I knew that if I did not change the way I lived I would live a life I would later regret.

The same themes ran through my head. This time I had to take a leap of faith. Now.

Will I waste my life knowing I want something but not going for it or will I take action today?

Life is too short. I cannot continue to live the way I am living. I will regret it in ten years time. I want to escape. I want to live.

I know that it is myself that is most important. Others don't matter - what they say or do doesn't matter.

I hope that there is a God who cares and I resolve to take the Alpha course.

I kept remembering the time when I was passionate and determined to succeed at one thing. Earth 2025, year 12. I had given it all and achieved the results I wanted. I have to relive this passion. This is more important than my career.

I have achieved all I want to achieve in my career. I am unhappy even though I have a good job. I know I should stop going for jobs. Instead, I should emulate the people who have achieved what I want to achieve. I didn't study five years for this.

Everyday is there to be enjoyed. It's God's gift for me.