After the suffering from losing money trading, I had a moment or two.
Losing my way
I knew that I had gradually been taken over by bad desires. More specifically, these are characteristics that I didn't want for myself. I was desperate to make money and I lost touch of humanity. This in part led to my unhappiness.
The predominant spirit that came to mind was greed. Not only that, I was selfish, envious, and lacked generosity.
I prayed to change my attitude. I was sorry for what I had become. As I did so, I felt less constricted and my heart more open.
What is God?
I thought about the definition of God. God can mean different things to different people.
Some may associate God with an image, an image of a person or religious idol.
In fact, I do not know whether there is God. I simply associate God as the spiritual amorphous, something that cannot really be defined.
I think that God is not tied to a religion. God exists prior to religion. How about babies and tribal people who don't know religion? Do they know God?
Accumulations
As a functioning human being who has been alive for over 2 years, I have accumulated learnings, habits, values, opinions, a way I perceive the world. These are shaped by external influences, most notably the people around me and information I consume.
Adults tend to become hardened with predisposed notions, with their own interpretation, set in their ways.
We are bombarded by information, from people, writings, and more recently the incessant connection to the digital.
I want to let go of all these accumulations. The accumulations are not me. I want to live like a child, open to everything.
I thought about Jesus spending 40 days in the wilderness. I want to be like that, without interference.
These accumulations also give way to unconscious habits and behaviours. Amongst other habits, I am chasing money, sleeping a certain way, focused on property, have a fear of the supernatural, have issues with God. These did not exist when I was young
Overcome these accumulations and the unintended mind.
Losing my way
I knew that I had gradually been taken over by bad desires. More specifically, these are characteristics that I didn't want for myself. I was desperate to make money and I lost touch of humanity. This in part led to my unhappiness.
The predominant spirit that came to mind was greed. Not only that, I was selfish, envious, and lacked generosity.
I prayed to change my attitude. I was sorry for what I had become. As I did so, I felt less constricted and my heart more open.
What is God?
I thought about the definition of God. God can mean different things to different people.
Some may associate God with an image, an image of a person or religious idol.
In fact, I do not know whether there is God. I simply associate God as the spiritual amorphous, something that cannot really be defined.
I think that God is not tied to a religion. God exists prior to religion. How about babies and tribal people who don't know religion? Do they know God?
Accumulations
As a functioning human being who has been alive for over 2 years, I have accumulated learnings, habits, values, opinions, a way I perceive the world. These are shaped by external influences, most notably the people around me and information I consume.
Adults tend to become hardened with predisposed notions, with their own interpretation, set in their ways.
We are bombarded by information, from people, writings, and more recently the incessant connection to the digital.
I want to let go of all these accumulations. The accumulations are not me. I want to live like a child, open to everything.
I thought about Jesus spending 40 days in the wilderness. I want to be like that, without interference.
These accumulations also give way to unconscious habits and behaviours. Amongst other habits, I am chasing money, sleeping a certain way, focused on property, have a fear of the supernatural, have issues with God. These did not exist when I was young
Overcome these accumulations and the unintended mind.
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